Mercy - not getting what you deserve
Grace - getting what you don't deserve
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Cleaning My Bedroom
I was thinking today about being clean, spiritually and physically. I have heard many times that the Spirit cannot dwell in unclean places, spiritually and physically.
My home teacher said that being in my apartment helped him feel the Spirit because it was clean. Clean and orderly. As he was saying this the sad state of my bedroom popped into my mind. It is a disaster. This made me think about my life at this time. From the outside I look all clean and orderly, full of the Spirit and testimony, but behind the closed door of my soul is a disaster. A disaster that I am going to take on.
Elder Uchtdorf spoke during my graduation from BYU-I and he focused on (or at least what stood out to me) the scripture D&C 88:119 that states:
119 aOrganize yourselves; prepare every needful thing; and establish a bhouse, even a house of prayer, a house of fasting, a house of faith, a house of learning, a house of glory, a house of order, a house of God;
This didn't really make a whole lot of sense to me at the time (partly because I was so excited to be done with school). But today this makes sense. Today this is where I need to focus.
How do I know my life is a disaster? I know this because I feel unworthy to receive help from my Savior. I know this because of the fear and uncertainty I feel.
Maybe eventually I can even clean my closet, you know the one where the secrets hide. ;)
My home teacher said that being in my apartment helped him feel the Spirit because it was clean. Clean and orderly. As he was saying this the sad state of my bedroom popped into my mind. It is a disaster. This made me think about my life at this time. From the outside I look all clean and orderly, full of the Spirit and testimony, but behind the closed door of my soul is a disaster. A disaster that I am going to take on.
Elder Uchtdorf spoke during my graduation from BYU-I and he focused on (or at least what stood out to me) the scripture D&C 88:119 that states:
119 aOrganize yourselves; prepare every needful thing; and establish a bhouse, even a house of prayer, a house of fasting, a house of faith, a house of learning, a house of glory, a house of order, a house of God;
This didn't really make a whole lot of sense to me at the time (partly because I was so excited to be done with school). But today this makes sense. Today this is where I need to focus.
How do I know my life is a disaster? I know this because I feel unworthy to receive help from my Savior. I know this because of the fear and uncertainty I feel.
Maybe eventually I can even clean my closet, you know the one where the secrets hide. ;)
Monday, January 23, 2012
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Back to Basics
Sometimes my life gets crazy. I'm sure you know nothing about that. ;)
I start feeling that I can't keep up. It makes it harder when I look at my list of goals I have made and realize that I can't keep up (failing) with those as well.
At these times in my life I always have to reevaluate somethings and in the end I go back to the basics. I go back to prayer and scriptures. I cling to them for my sanity. I cling to them for my safety.
That is where I am right now. Clinging to the basics.
I start feeling that I can't keep up. It makes it harder when I look at my list of goals I have made and realize that I can't keep up (failing) with those as well.
At these times in my life I always have to reevaluate somethings and in the end I go back to the basics. I go back to prayer and scriptures. I cling to them for my sanity. I cling to them for my safety.
That is where I am right now. Clinging to the basics.
Monday, October 17, 2011
Tears
"I have come to realize that tears that come when touched by the spirit can cleanse our eyes to see things in new way." - David Jensen
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Words of Wisdom
My grandparents have been married for 68 years.
As I was standing with my family in a hospital room tonight watching my grandmother pass away, my grandfather (who has the toughest exterior) said these words.
"People ask me how we made a marriage last like that. I tell them, she was my best friend when I needed it and she was my best friend when I didn't deserve it."
It was heartbreaking to watch a tough old farmer break down at the idea of separating from his one true love for a season.
As I was standing with my family in a hospital room tonight watching my grandmother pass away, my grandfather (who has the toughest exterior) said these words.
"People ask me how we made a marriage last like that. I tell them, she was my best friend when I needed it and she was my best friend when I didn't deserve it."
It was heartbreaking to watch a tough old farmer break down at the idea of separating from his one true love for a season.
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